Dear Aiden- 19 Months

Dear Aiden,

It's actually a pretty quiet morning around the house and it is just the perfect time to write to you. Right now it's just me and Cami that are awake. Your little dog is so funny- and so not little! She's about 72 pounds right now! I know, such a big girl! I just know you would get a kick out of all the craziness she does. Like stealing the cat's food, chasing rabbits in the neighborhood, and barking at the doorbell ringing on tv. Seriously hilarious baby boy :)

Today my heart feels a little lighter. I'm not really sure why. But it's a welcome thing so I hold on tight to it whenever the feeling hits me. I know you have a hand in helping me breathe a little easier some days. And I thank you for that.

Things are boring and peaceful around here these days. But I like boring and peaceful. It gives me a chance to focus on the things that matter the most- you, your daddy, your brother. You all fill my heart up so much. It's amazing how much love you can hold inside for another person. Thank you for helping to fill not just my heart but my spirit and soul as well.

I can't believe that yesterday you were 19 months old! I know I say that every month but seriously, it's such a crazy thing. I miss you. I wish you were here. I love you so very much.

I want you to remember that no matter what direction life takes me you are always being carried in my heart. Every step of the way you are along for the ride. Just like you were when I carried you inside me- my little partner in crime. It's kinda nice to think about how you're always with me especially when times get tough.

I hope Heaven is wonderfully amazing today! I hope that you and your little angel baby friends make some amazing paintings- I'll be watching the sky tonight. I hope that you get lots of snuggles and kisses from Mimi and Papa. I hope that you know every second of every minute you are on my mind and in my heart.

I love you forever and always,
Mama