Dear Aiden,
Hey baby boy........I hope that you are having a good day in Heaven. I know you are hanging out with family and all your angel baby friends and that makes me smile.
For some reason this post is hard for me to write today. I usually have no problem writing you letters.
But today it's tough.
I think I know why. You were with us for 36 weeks and 5 days. I was happily moving into my 9th month of carrying you- totally and completely in love with my son. And then suddenly the baby I was counting down to seeing in 3 weeks was ripped from me. Gone.....forever.
Now 9 months later in just a short time you will have been gone longer than you were with us..........
Everything about that is just so
wrong.
I miss you. I miss you every day. I think about you every.single.day.
I struggle with a lot of things- life is just so rough some days.
But what I want you to know is that even on my hardest day thoughts of you still warm my heart. You will always be my perfect little baby. An angel. Loved by so many. But especially loved by me.
Even when you see mama struggling, crying, angry, or sad please know it is only because I miss you. I wish I could do more for you today. More than just write a letter. I wish I could put you in a cute outfit with a big 9 month sticker on it. I long to take tons of pictures and send them to everyone to see your cute face. I wish we could have a special "Aiden's 9 months old!" birthday dinner with just me, you, and daddy. So much I want to do for you.
While I can't do any of those things I can love you. It may be from far away but I believe my love is strong enough to reach you. I believe that you know how much I love you.
I love you baby boy. Forever and always.
Please know that you are forever loved. Forever missed. Forever remembered.
I love you Aiden!
Love,
Mommy
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