I'm just a little frustrated that people expect me to be ok all the time. It's like it was ok to be sad for awhile but now I need to get over it. I don't know what to say other than you don't know how it feels. You don't know how it feels to be in my shoes, with this pain, this emptiness, this despair. I miss my son. I try to put on a happy face and most of the time I honestly feel ok. I'm not good or bad.....just ok. But a happy face doesn't take away the pain in my heart. And I think that considering most days I do a pretty good job of being ok it should be alright if some days I'm just not. I love my family and friends- they have been here through everything these last 3 months. I just think that it's hard to get people to understand what I'm feeling.
Tomorrow will be 3 months since we lost Aiden....I can't believe it has been 3 months already. It's just crazy that this time has gone by. Some days it feels like yesterday- I can still remember everything that happened that day. It's burned into my memory. Sometimes it seems like I've aged 30 years in the last 3 months. So weird. I know tomorrow will be hard for me. I should be holding a 3 month old baby not dreaming of the memories I had with him over 9 months. I could use some prayers :)
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