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Last night I had dinner with Mary and on my way into the restaurant I saw a very pregnant woman. Now of course we all see pregnant women all the time- that's nothing unusual. Rough but not unusual. But this particular pregnant lady made me do a double take. Why did I look back you may be asking yourselves? You'll never believe it (or unfortunately maybe you will).......
She was smoking a cigarette.
Are you kidding me????? Really???? You horrible person.....you have been blessed with this precious life and you put them at risk by smoking a cigarette?????
It took everything in me not to scream at her.
I try so hard not to question God. I know he has laid everything out the way it is supposed to be and I have to accept that. And I do. But when I see people who take such poor care of themselves and have no regard for the precious unborn life they are carrying I break a little more inside. I'm not angry at God. I just don't understand why......I know it's not for me to understand but it still tears me up inside. If God would trust me with a little life again I would do every thing in my power to keep that baby safe- the same way I did with Aiden. Why does he trust that lady and not me? Why do I have a broken heart and when am I going to be okay again?
Again I find myself so super broken......and wondering why me, why us, why Aiden.........
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