Small Miracles Blog Hop #2

"The road that is built in hope is more pleasant to the traveler

than the road built in despair,
even though they both lead to the same destination. "
~Marian Zimmer Bradley

It's time for this month's Small Miracles blog hop. I so need to have hope right now which makes this blog hop perfect for today.  The quote above is so true and relevant to where I am right now in my life.  No matter what, my path in life is going to lead to the same end.  I can either have hope and travel a little more pleasantly or give up hope and be miserable the rest of my life.  I know that I want to choose hope.  I need hope.  I got my small miracle (hope) this week while I was working :)

Earlier this week I was talking to one of our doctors (Dr. M) about a patient and when we were done she said this to me, "When I talked to Dr. X earlier and he told me you were working on this patient I thought to myself, my Natasha!" Now Dr. M is a sweetheart.....and a great doctor. Every year I do a clinic at her church and give lots of flu shots to raise money for her mission trip. (I'm pretty good at giving shots but I hate getting them!!!) She came to Aiden's memorial with tears in her eyes.  I love her.

At this point in the day we were both at work very late and it had been a long day.  She proceeded to tell me that she had been praying for me and our family.  That I had a very special angel looking out for me every day now.  That she told her priest about Aiden and he was praying for us too.  She also told me that she had been through something very difficult in her life as well recently. And then she said this, "God has given you this cross to bear for a reason.....it will make you an even stronger and more beautiful person than you already are."

I needed to hear that.  At that moment I needed something to push me forward to hope.  And there it was....on the phone....2 hours after I should have been gone from work....in the middle of so much work stuff....a little hope.  Hope that even though I have this awful burden to bear, life can still be an enjoyable thing....that I can still live.

Finally she told me that I have never been alone in all of this....everyone that cares about me has been right here with me grieving too and praying for me.  Thank you Dr. M for giving me some hope this week......

"Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul 

and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all."

~Emily Dickinson